I want her; I know in that moment I have always wanted her.
I take a step towards her; she blinks, an invitation to her dark abyss. Did the Black Rabbit smile? Can Rabbits smile? As always on the cusp, I hesitate, unable to grasp her for myself.
Perhaps she is a test, a temptation to a hellish unknown. Will red-faced devils and nymphs ridicule and poke me forever with their cynical cutlery of failure? Or will she show me everything I’ve ever wished for – joy, happiness, belonging? Will that hole be nothing – am I ready for the void? In a world of uncertainty, of overwhelming choice, it is finite and sure, a peaceful thing.
The Black Rabbit twitches. She’s losing interest in me, beckoned elsewhere by another lost soul.
The ground below me is solid, the earth today is a beautiful shade of orange.
I raise my eyes and gaze again into the dark green and grey.
I follow her.